Elephant Pictures

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growth

So I take the SAME pictures of Miss Haylee when we go to the zoo. I really should look at taking different ones... BUT then I love to see the progression of her. I took these three first and WOW... She is growing WAY to fast in my very own personal opinion...

November 2009

February 2009

June 2008

How Cute...

Ever since we have gone to the zoo, one of our FAVORITE places to go, we have taken pretty much the same pictures. I will have to one day post the same ones side by side so we can all see, and cry, at the change in my BIG girl.

The monday after our trip from Utah I woke up with NO VOICE. I haven't felt sick or anything, just no voice. Haylee at first cried, she was worried that I wouldn't be able to talk again ever. So needless to say, I went to work monday morning and then I was sent home... can't really do my job if I can't talk! So then today I woke up and still NO SOUND coming from my mouth. Tonight I have sound... it's just a bit scratching and it cracks, but I can talk!

So with the last two days off me and Haylee have spent alot of time together. Today we went to the zoo. I think maybe being outside in the cold helped to get my voice back. We weren't there very long, but it was very fun. We have season passes and so we will go every once in a while, even if it is only for a hour or so... it's fun.

I know.. this is Brittney's FAV place to go... oh wait... I mean Haylee's favorite. Today there was hardly anyone there, so it was very empty and that was nice not to fight for a space.

I love the birdies!

Ok... This may be one of the LAST times she fits in this wing span... she's growing!

I had a good day with my little... She's a VERY good little girl and I am so blessed and lucky to have her as my very own daughter.

Utah trip with my Girls from 4821

We are in Utah for a total team training for work... This is my girl Crystal on the plane... we are getting ready to take off.

This is our mama T... she's so sweet

Crystal and Megan, our FAV lab girl... we surprised Crystal and had a hummer limo for Friday night. Her birthday was earlier this week. It was SO awesome and such a surprise. We have always loved Meg... but after getting to meet her and hang with her we really LOVE meg!

Stormye (Dr. B's wife), Crystal, and Me... these girls are awesome... we are headed to Park City for our dinner... in the limo... it was SO much fun!

This was the first morning... I LOVE utah and the mountains... it was really cute because these girls haven't ever been here and they are in awe. I suppose that I take for granted being able to travel and being able to come here so often. The coolness of the air, the smell, the mountains, the everything. We wanted to get everyone... but I suppose at least getting these girls is alright, cause I freaking LOVE them. After spending so much time with them this weekend we have all really gotten to know each other and it's been so nice. We have laughed so hard that we have cried... its so much fun.

Oh and the training... yeah it was TOTALLY AWESOME. The absolute BEST I have ever been to!

Like a Bag of Bricks...

it hits me...
Haylee doesn't know and won't ever know Meridith.

When Haylee stated at her school they had all the parents make family posters so that the kids could see pictures of their families all day long. The kids were SO proud of their poster. They would brag to the other kids and get territorial about it when others were checking it out.

This started in the younger toddler room (age 12-18 months) and the same poster followed the kids through the three year old class. Well now that she is in younger pre-k the poster came home. She got it out tonight and we were looking at it... she would not tell me who the people were... I was asking about Meridith. Its the pictures from her high school graduation when I was preggo and Brett was on his mission. She would not tell me it was Aunt Mer Mer... and then it hit me...

What if she has forgotten?
Am I not talking about her and showing her enough pictures?
Is she forgetting all that I have told her?
Because she won't remember the first 6 months of her life when Meridith was alive.

Meridith was so excited when I had Haylee. She was in Idaho going to school and could NOT concentrate in class. One of her teachers noticed and asked her what was wrong... she told this teacher that her sister was at the hospital having a baby and her parents were in Argentina picking up her brother from his mission... Her teacher was surprised that she was in class and NOT with me... then she said that I was in Texas. If it was up to her she would of been on a plane already coming home. But me being the mommy I told her NO that she was to stay in class since she was coming home in one week. I so wish that I would of let her. I would of loved to go through all of that with her. I had Aaron, my other brother, and that was so awesome. I wish that she could of been here one week earlier... it would of been one more week that I would of had her all to myself before that horrible day in May.

This is Haylee's forth birthday, and it's the forth birthday with out Meridith. At my baby shower my best friends had all my guests make first birthday cards for Haylee... I have the one from Meridith. Its a real treasure... I just miss her, and it's something like this that makes it hard all over again... She was so awesome and So excited to have a niece, and now here we are going on with our life without her... it doesn't seem right....

So it hit me... while she was playing... that I still don't have my sister here... that my daughter and her aren't best friends... that I miss her more and more each day...

Birthday Party...

Here's a little taste of the Birthday Girls EXCITEMENT as the bounce house was getting put up and blown up... She could NOT CONTAIN herself she was so excited... screaming and jumping... and running around...

Halloween

Showing off her pretty pink princess shoes

Isn't this the MOST beautiful princess ever?

Cinderella getting ready to go to her Halloween Party at her school.

I love her curls.... which by the way I DID... her hair is not that curly naturally.

This year Haylee was Cinderella and grandma made her dress. I curled her hair, did her make up and she even had sparkles in her hair. I think tit turned out beautiful and it was much prettier then any other Cinderella dress out there. Friday night we went to her school they had a halloween party. They do it every year, trunk or treat, carnival games that each class does. It is always fun. Especially when Haylee gets to "hang" with her buddies.
Saturday we went trick or treating that night... but it wasn't as good as last year. She liked it.. then we went over to grandma and papa's house so she could show them her whole get up. She did get the remainder of the candy from them... so she has a FULL bag.
She now wants a princess party so she can wear her costume again and everyone can come dressed as princesses.

296th Post

Most people blog about the 100th post or whatever... I just noticed that this is my 296th post... WOW... that's alot! But I LOVE going back and reading what I wrote about and remembering the memories. I love that I blog about things Haylee does, because my memory is not a good one. I love that I can watch her grow... I love that I take the time to do this and sometimes wish that I did it more.

Today while I was at work I received the dreaded phone call from Haylee's day care. I HATE seeing that number as a missed call on my cell phone and then the office phone ring. It was one of the teachers and she told me very first... Haylee is alright. BUT they were doing circle time and Haylee was being good. She was laying on the bean bag. Well apparently there was another child who wasn't being so good and the teacher told that child again to sit down. When this child didn't listen again (which is VERY common for these adorable 3 year olds I might add) they stepped backwards and stepped right on Haylee's HEAD! This pushed her earring into her dead which caused it to bleed and she was very very very upset. They got her on the phone so I could talk to her and she lost it. This was very hard for me to be apart from her because it meant that I had to tell my darling daughter to be strong and she would be alright. I know in my head that she was... but my heart was screaming for her.

I called my mom who said that my dad was already on his way. He got there a few moments later and he was able to get her... they called me and she again lost it on the phone. At this time I knew she was with someone who loves this little girl and was able to give her all the attention. When I got off work I went to my parents house and there she was... all better and happy.

I sure do love that little girl... I would of never guessed that being a parent brought out so many emotions.... but it is worth it EVERY time.

Haylee the Photographer

My little bug loves to take pictures. She would carry my camera everywhere if I would let her. She takes a picture of EVERYTHING! I love it... she has started to turn the camera around and likes to take pictures of herself. She told me the other night to get next to her and she took our photo. Meridith was the same way. That girl LOVED herself and we have million of photos to prove it. Many of them she took her self. When she died we lost her camera, and we were really bummed. It had some of the last photos of our time with her, but we have her computer which has most all of them... what a treasure to have all those pictures of her time in Idaho at school, here with her friends in Texas and all the ones with her family. I am glad that Haylee has the love for the camera and taking pictures like that. I love the documentation of our daily life and any other event that we have going on. I love my daughter and I miss my sister.

I can see how we look alike in this picture... but I don't usually see that very often. She is so beautiful... but I'm not biased or anything!

She held out the milk jug and was so proud that she could take a picture of the milk.

Poor little baby all she wanted to do was take a picture of the stove and the steam that was coming from the pans... I kept sticking my face in front of the camera right before it clicked and she would get so mad at me. I laughed the whole time and finally let her get it... but it was really funny.

Haylee took this one too.... and I like it!

This was the first picture that she took when she got my camera... she positioned the bear in front of summer and it was really cute. Haylee says that summer is her baby girl.. I would have to agree. I love summer! She is so beautiful and sweet and calm. She's a good doggie.

Random...

Haylee's birthday is right around the corner... I can't believe that my little girl is going to be 4! I want to do a birthday party for her... but I am so unsure of what it is that we should do. I stress about the dumbest things.

Tonight was a Halloween party that me and Adam were going to go to... but when Chade woke up yesterday morning not feeling to well and is not doing any better today... plans changed and we are staying home. Adam tells me that I'm overreacting with the whole flu season...BUT I AM NOT! Haylee already suffers from respiratory problems and I am not taking any chances... so our hands stay cleaner and the house stays cleaner and those silly boys have to get shots... at least we won't get the swine flu. Yesterday he woke up and stayed home from school. Me and Haylee were gone all day.... by last night about 830 or 9 he had a fever... had a fever this morning but then from 11a to about 5p nothing... then the 99 fever came back. Poor guy... needless to say Haylee has been staying with my parents since we were going to the Halloween party... and now she will stay there till sickness is gone. I miss the little bug... but I can't miss work and I hate it when she is sick. Chade has been a trooper. The house is clean... and Lysol and GermEx are my BEST friends right now.

I didn't sleep hardly at all last night. I don't know why... but I slept like poo. So I was up at 645 this morning. It's been a long day so far. I cleaned out the downstairs coat closet, the living room, vacuumed the stairs, and washed I think all the hoodies and blankets in the house. I feel kinda productive. I will Lysol everything again before bed.... I LOVE the wipes! They make it easy.

This boyfriend of mine is pretty cool... ain't he a cutie... FINALLY a cute picture of the two of us... I mean Im not a total fan of myself, but I LOVE his smile. Haylee was the photographer here and so he had no choice. I guess this is the only words to go along with any of these pictures. This is kinda a random post.

This is Lisa, Adam's mommy. She HATES getting her picture taken...but she smiled this time. We usually go over there on Friday's and grill out with everyone. It's fun.

Well... enough down time for me... time to mop the kitchen floor!

WHY....

can't I get one picture... that's all I wanted... Chade offered to take the one of us kissing... and he zoomed in on my face...

This is me growling at my boyfriend who refuses to smile pretty in the camera... between him and haylee Im not sure who is worse.. But I still love and adore them both!!

New Shoes

Tonight we went to get some new shoes... well it didn't start out this way, but it ended up this way. In fact all 4 of us got some new shoes. Haylee got some black DC's and Chade got white Adidas. Even me and Adam got some new shoes... Adam informed me that the new shoe fetish is beginning again. Haylee is stoked about her new shoes and didn't even want to take them off tonight. It was pretty cute!

Check out our new shoes!

Taking pictures to send to others! I know we are super mondo lame! But I love it... and the kids eat it up! What can I say... we love us some new shoes!

It was by chance that I got this picture. Haylee wanted to run outside with her new shoes to see how fast she could run... I snapped this one and got this awesome smile in her new shoes and jammas.

the girls...

haylee took this one... this is haylee taking self portraits!!!

baby blues

can we PLEASE take a pretty smile picture???

Haylee

I wanted ONE picture of Haylee... she looked so beautiful and grown up on Sunday... I have about 11 or so pictures and most of them are SILLY... But she is 4 and she is MINE... Isn't she funny... she keeps me young, happy, and alive... Thanks Haylee Bugs... MOMMY LOVES YOU!

10 Year High School Reunion

Last night with my 10 year high school reunion. Class of 1999. It seems like yesterday that we were just teenagers, running around with no care or worry. Michelle has been my friend forever. She is that one person that I will always be friends with. It doesn't matter how much time passes in between the times that we see each other, its as if there was one night. I love her and miss her living far from me... I mean Tyler is only a few hours, but its not a hop skip and a jump.

Last night was pretty cool, I have such bad anxiety over things like that... but I dealt with it. It was really neat to see all the people that we went to school with and how people have changed and grown up. Everyone looked good. I don't think anyone looked bad... The group that put it all together did a great job. They really planned out all the details really well and everything went so smooth.



These pictures were taken after we got back to my house. I had Adam take one of us... he said he only would if we were picking each others noses... so we did! Without hesitation. The only bad part of the night is when Michelle went to leave someone backed into her car. I mean how rude is that to back into a car and not leave a note or anything. She takes is so well, I would be a mess, but she's a tough cookie. She has always had a hit me mobile. Love You Chelle...

Funday Sunday

Today we had a little work party... We went out to my bosses house to watch the Cowboys game and hang out all day long. We got out there about 12 or 1230 and stayed till 630 or 645. He has a four wheeler and a few utility vehicles, for a lack of a better description. We kissed the kids goodbye and had a good day. Haylee LOVED playing and Chade had a BLAST with the other older kids out on the riding toys. Everyone was SOO muddy because it has been raining here alot lately. But they had fun and the mud washes out. It always fun to get away from the office and bond with the others. We were able to chat and cook and eat and just have a good time. I really like the people that I work with... all of them. I like how we are all friends and we just get along. Crystal got a picture of us... so I am gonna have to try to steal it from her.

Another Month of 2009 is about done and over with...

Where does the time go? And why does it have to go so fast? In about 6 weeks or so my baby... yes my BABY will be 4 years old. I mean really... 4 years old? Today I looked at her and she looked so big and beautiful. I almost got a little sad... she is NOT a baby anymore. But when are they not your baby any more?

This past weekend was moving weekend and I do believe that I am all done. It was and is still a little overwhelming at times... I have a hard time with wanting everything done now and it to all be done and perfect... but I am dealing. With all the help we had and my awesome Adam to help keep me grounded and focused... its all done and our home is slowly getting back to normal in some kind of order... well the order may have to wait till the weekend when I have more then a few hours at night. BUT... I fixed the direct TV problem... transferred service and am NOT paying the $360 cancellation fee. So that's a BONUS! Be watching for one serious garage sale... I mean I have BAGS of clothes of Haylee's and we have TONS of stuff that we are getting rid of. We can't wait to make some room and some dough.

So this brings us to another month gone by... I am looking forward to October... it's HALLOWEEN... and so now I have to decide what to be... we are going to have a halloween party... yeah!