There comes a time...

in life when you have to make decisions that are the best decisions for you and your family. And my family I mean MY family. My family includes the people that love me unconitionaly... Kevin, Haylee, Dakota, Parker, and Creede! I will never hide behind a blog or not say something to someone but then blast it online. I will never be a judgemental self rightious person. I believe that everyone has struggles and everyone is doing the best they can. I, however, refuse to continue to live a life for others and I choose to live for me. I choose to fight for and protect the ones I love. I am so forever thankful for Kevin. I have finally found my true love forever. Someone that is full of ambition. A hard worker. A respectful person of me! Just an all around fablous human that I will forever be blessed to call mine! I haven't written on my blog in a long time. I feel like this blog is a blog of the past and not the future. Not OUR future... but one that is brighter now then ever before. I am choosing to keep my life private from others to avoid being attacked for doing something outside of the morman faith by those who claim to love and want the best for me. I do not choose to keep it private to hide. I have nothing to hide. I choose to protect myself as well as my family from the judgement and vicious words that are thrown verbally and cowardly online simply because others are jealous and unable to love unconditionaly. It is interesting... I went back through comments that are full of hate that I never published, yet saved and felt a sense of peace that I am no longer going to subject myself to that. In fact maybe I will post them, maybe I will make them to where if anyone was to go to that specific post then they would see the hateful comments that people feel the need to say online only. I am thankful every day for MY strong willed child who is so incredinbly smart and able to think on her own so that she can make her own assumptions and judgements without outside inflences. She is protective of me and my feelings as I am hers. I hope the haters find peace. I hope the haters are able to not concern themselves with our life. OUR LIFE. The title of the blog... not their life.

January 2

Do you ever feel overwhelmed? Do you ever wonder if you can do it all?? I am starting to feel this way at home, at work, and personally. I don't know if I should be a list maker and just tackle one thing at a time, or if I am just simply freaking myself out. Either way... today I am feeling overwhelmed.

Look what I had saved... but never posted!!

These are pictures from Christmas 2012. When we decorated the outside of the house... I just went through my old posts and this was never posted... and I never wrote in it. We sure miss out sweet Izzy dog... but my princess Haylee is SOOOO beautiful with her crazy hair!

 

 

 

 

 

2014

2013 is over. Thank goodness. We had a lot of changes in 2013... some of which were hard at first but have proven to be awesome.

Highlights...
1. I started a new job, and I LOVE it!
2. Me and Adam split up...
3. Haylee and me are closer then ever.
4. Haylee finished 1st grade and started 2nd grade.
5. Cheer season came and went... we won the SUPERBOWL! Go Irish!
6. Fostered relationships with friends and I have been missing for a long time.

One thing I know for sure is I miss blogging... I miss being able to go back on my life and remember the good, the bad, and the ugly. I miss watching my sweet Haylee grow up through pictures. With my new laptop that my parents got me for Christmas, this should be no problem.


Welcome 2014... this is MY year!!!

Editing

One day I will figure out how to place the pictures and text where I want it... until then I will have crazy looking posts like the one below... sigh.

Red Ribbon Week

 

A few weeks ago it was Red Ribbon Week at school. Haylee hasn't ever been too into dressing up and doing the whole spirit thing at school until this year. And she dressed up every day. My favorite days were 80's day and career day. We got her a good 80's outfit and I spent 45 minutes braiding her hair into tiny braids so it could be "crimped" for the day. It was a lot of fun. She really listens and takes in what they say about no drugs and how it can ruin life's. She wants to be a vet when she grows up. She has a love for all animals... and I think really one of her favorite animals is the vulture. Luckily Uncle Aaron works across the street from a scrub shop that had kids scrubs and so he was able to pick some up for her. Cutest little thing ever!! I am beyond blessed to be this little girls mama.

Elf on the Shelf Giveaway

There are a few things that I look forward to Thanksgiving for... Black Friday. Eating. Shopping. Eating. and ELF ON THE SHELF comes back!! See Jane Blog is hosting an AMAZING giveaway with not only your own elf but 25 days worth of stuff for your elf!! Go check it out!

My Birthday Girl

She is 7!! I can't believe that it has been so many years! Haylee has grown up to be such a beautiful little girl!! She is an amazing reader. She loves arts and crafts. She is a great mommy and loves all her babies. She is bossy and I think that comes naturally to her! I love my sweet Haylee!!

Best Haylee Quote

Last week Adam had Haylee and they had been running all over town while I was at work. She has become quite the home body lately. So while they were at WallyWorld she said....

"Daddy sometimes I wish we were snails. Because then we would always be home."

I have to agree. But seriously where does she come up with this stuff??

Sleepy Girl

Haylee sleeps just like my mom with her arms up. I had washed her sheets and blankets today. Tonight when we made her bed up she stated picking babies and animals to sleep with her... And oh boy she picked a BUNCH! There is something so peaceful and cuddly about a sleeping child. I guess it's what makes me a sucker for letting her sleep with me all the time. I just say no to all the other stuffed guests!

Internet

I am amazed daily at the Internet. Today a found a lost friend. Someone who made an impact on my life and for the last 10 years I have wondered about... today they are found!

I also saw death. After reading a very tragic story of a 3month old baby losing his life I found myself on the medical examiners site reading the public reports. A neighbor of my parents passed yesterday, they did not know him, but I did.

Memory Flood

Tonight I was cleaning out my camera and my phone to get ready to head to Utah tomorrow for Kristen's wedding. As I was doing so I was going back and looking at old pictures and wow. I love how a photograph and bring the memory of that time back almost instantly. Haylee was SOOOO little and such a little beauty. I mean I know I am her mother but I have alot of picture of us together and I can see the joy in our faces. I am so lucky to have her as my daughter and that I get to be her mother.